TITLE: The Deepest Love
AUTHOR: Erin M. Blair
E-MAIL: eblair@sonic.net / erinmblair@gmail.com
CLASSIFICATION/CATEGORY: SRA --Story, Romance, Angst.
CONTENT: Mulder/Scully Romance
RATING: PG.
DISTRIBUTION/ARCHIVE STATEMENT: OK to 
Gossamer, Ephemeral, After the Fact, and MSR 
Cheerleaders Archive.
SPOILERS: Deep Throat
DATE: September 27, 2003 - first draft. Completed
on: November 10, 2004.
NOTES: Thanks to Jen for beta reading this fanfic.This 
was written for After the Fact's Deep Throat challenge.
DISCLAIMER: Mulder and Scully belong to that
surfer guy, Chris Carter. 
SUMMARY: Mulder realizes that he's in love with 
Scully. The question is: will he tell her the truth?


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I realize that Scully came through to me today, like a 
dream that I want to keep by my side forever. She helped me 
after those men took me, draining my memories, but the 
constant memory that I have will be of her.

Scully.

I know she cares for me. I looked into her beautiful azure 
colored eyes, knowing the depth of her feelings for me. She 
loves me.

That I know. 

Her actions proved that to me; she would do anything to 
save me, to protect me from harm. She said it today on the 
drive to the X-Files office. 

I don't think she knows that I'm in love with her, however. 
She isn't ready to embrace that...at least not yet. 

As for me, I have this strong affection for her. My 
feelings run so deep, so deep within my soul. I feel as 
though I have known her forever. Whenever I look into her 
blue eyes, I feel this bond with her. It transcends time 
and space. I want to dive into the pools of her eyes. I 
want her so much. This strong, sensual feeling that I have 
for her is too powerful to comprehend in the English 
language. I wish I had the words to let her know how much I 
love her, how much I want her to be mine. I want to take 
her into my arms and protect her from anything that comes 
our way. I look for a sign -- anything -- to let me believe 
that she feels the same way for her. I want to tell Scully 
how much I'm in love with her. 

But I can't. I have to wait. I know I have to wait for a 
sign from her. I don't care how long it takes. I'm a 
patient person -- or at least, that's what I've always 
believed. 

I never fell in love with someone so quickly until I met 
Scully. When she walked into my life, I just knew she was 
the one. I felt this deep love from the first day I met 
her. As the days turned into weeks, I knew I was falling in 
love with her. I knew I had to hide my feelings for her and 
hope she wouldn't find out. I wanted us to start slow, to 
develop a strong friendship before we embarked on a 
romantic relationship.

Scully walks into the office, carrying her trench coat, and 
she crosses over to her chair. She stands there a minute, 
studying my face, and I have a feeling she is wondering 
what to say. "Mulder, is there something wrong?"

I look at her beautiful features. Her face is full of 
concern for me. My voice tries to form an answer, but 
nothing comes out. Yet. I know I should wait until she 
gives me a sign, but I don't want to wait anymore.

I want Scully so much. I want to feel her, skin to skin, to 
touch her red gold hair. I want to be with her forever. I 
can feel the energy between us in our office - it feels so 
magnetic and real. My voice starts out slow as I try to 
gather the words to explain how I feel about her. "Scully, 
there's something I have to say..."

"What?"

"I didn't know until now how much you meant to me when you 
came into my life. I'm falling in love with you, Scully."

I finally said the words. I am totally, madly in love with 
the woman of my dreams.

"You're in love with me?"

I nod. "I wanted to tell you sooner, Scully, but I didn't 
know how you'd react if I kissed you at the bar."

"You did?"

I nod again. "Yes, Scully. I'm completely in love with 
you."

"Mulder, I didn't know if you felt the same way...I wanted 
to let you know...."

"I know."

"I feel the same way, Mulder. In fact, I've always had 
feelings for you."

"Really?"

"Yes, Mulder. I never liked to open my feelings towards 
anyone. It's that scientific detachment. I've been involved 
with men before...but you're the first man that I feel that 
I can drown myself in." She paused. "Do you know what I 
mean?"

I nod. I can feel my smile deepen. I'm so happy she feels 
the same way I feel the same way about her. I know my life 
is now complete.

With her love for me. 

"I know exactly what you mean, Scully."

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The End