Title: Dear Samantha
Author: Erin M. Blair
E-Mail: eblair@sonic.net
Category: VA--Vignette, Angst.
Disclaimer: They aren't mine. 
Rating: PG.
Summary: Young Mulder reflects on
losing Samantha. Pre-XF.

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DEAR SAMANTHA
Written by: Erin M. Blair 
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Dear Samantha,

It's been three weeks since you went 
away, Samantha. There's been no word
since you departed. I have been having
these nightmares...terrible ones...of
you being experimented upon by God knows
what.

Aliens.

Why are they in my mind? I don't really
remember even seeing them, Sam, on the
horrible day you were taken from me. 

Is it because I don't *really* want to 
remember? 

Or maybe I'm too scared to find out the
truth?

I miss you, Sam. I hope you're safe wherever
you are.

Nothing seems right to me anymore because
you're not here. I watch all the shows 
we had watched together and I can't laugh
at the jokes.

I can't laugh because I'm crying.

Everyone's crying over your disappearance.

Mom's crying.

She's angry at Dad for some reason. I don't
know why.

Dad's upset. I think he regrets something
of which I know nothing about. 

I'll know the truth someday, Samantha, of 
why you were taken from us. I'll keep on 
looking for you. Forever.

As always, I want to believe.

-Fox

Author's Notes: It's disjointed due to Mulder's
pain about losing Samantha as it takes place a 
couple of days after what happened. At this point
of his life, he's confused over the events which
led to his sister's abduction. He *saw* something
that night, but he can't express it very well. Thus
the "disjointedness" of this vignette. 

Feedback: Much appreciated and welcomed. Send to: 
eblair@sonic.net