TITLE: Him AUTHOR: Erin M. Blair E-MAIL: eblair@sonic.net CLASSIFICATION/CATEGORIES: VRA--Vignette, Romance, Angst. CONTENT: Mulder/Scully Romance. Character Death (supposed). DISTRIBUTION/ARCHIVE STATEMENT: OK to Gossamer, Ephemeral, MSR Fanfic Cheerleaders Archive. Others: ask me first. RATING: PG. SPOILERS: This is Not Happening. SETTING: Season 8. DISCLAIMER: Mulder and Scully belong to Chris Carter. DATE: Completed on August 6, 2004. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS: Thanks to Jen for beta reading for me. Your help is truly appreciated. SUMMARY: Scully remembers Mulder. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I miss him; the days are long and cold without him. The three months since his funeral have been heart wrenching. If it wasn't for our unborn child, I would have died with him. In a way, a part of me died that day when I found him on the forest floor. That much is certain. I kept asking God this: why did He have to take him away from me. What did we do to deserve this enormous pain? After his death, I kept thinking about the love we shared together. He has my heart, my soul, and my love. Our love will always continue through the spaces of time. And in our baby. I've been trying to keep a lid on my emotions, but I can't. Pregnancy seems to do a number on me. I've been crying off and on since I found him dead. If it weren't for the endless support and condolences from my family, friends, and even some fellow agents, I would have snapped entirely. I've been trying to summon the strength to keep myself from fading away. I've been keeping up my health for the baby that we made together after we watched "Caddyshack." Now I have to think of our baby. I have to think about the future without him. My memories of our love will last forever. Our child will pass on our love to his or her children. We will go on living within our child. This way -- our love will last until the end of time. ~~ The End