Title: If I Die
Author: Erin M. Blair
E-Mail: eblair@sonic.net
Classification: VRA--Vignette, Romance, Angst
Content: Mulder/Scully Romance. Scully POV.
Spoilers: Redux II. End Game.
Archive: OK to archive at Gossamer, EMXC,
Ephemeral and various archives. 
Disclaimer: The characters of Fox Mulder and 
Dana Scully aren't mine. They're the property 
of Chris Carter, 1013 Productions, and the FOX Network.
Summary: Scully reflects upon her remission from cancer
in a letter to Mulder.

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IF I DIE...
Written by: Erin M. Blair <eblair@sonic.net>
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Dana Scully's hospital room
Washington DC
November 1997

Dear Mulder,
I'm sitting here in my hospital room after hearing
the news. You found the chip which probably cured
my cancer for that I'm truly grateful. I have
some good news to tell you. I know you'll be here 
soon, but I have to tell you now: I'm in
remission! Yes, you heard right. I'm going to
live for a long, long time.

What worried me, deeply, was how would have my 
death affected you. I know how my death would have
affected my family. That's a no brainer. But you--
what would your reaction be if I had died?

I know how much you care for me, Mulder. I'd seen
the warmth in your hazel eyes. The way you kissed my
hand...the way you touched me with your touch. I feel
the same way about you. I don't care what Melissa
Ephresian had said that you're her soulmate. This
lifetime, you _are_ my soulmate as I know I am yours.
I love you, Mulder. I had loved you ever since the
first day in your...our office...when you thought
I'd come to spy on you.

If I had died, you would have grieved for me as if
you'd lost half your heart. I felt the same for you when
you almost died in Alaska. I don't know what I would
had done if you died. I would have lost my heart
in the process.

I guess that we're both lucky to have one another.

Yours,

Dana Scully
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End of Vignette


Author's Note: This story was written last year, and it's my
first story posted at Gossamer. This story isn't part of any
series; it's just a stand alone story regarding 
Scully's thoughts from Redux II. Since the passing of a beloved
online friend, Samantha, I decided to revisit this vignette in
a tribute to her. 

I would appreciate any feedback regarding this story.

Dedication: I dedicate this story to Gillian Anderson
whose fine portrayal of Dana Scully brings so much to
the role. I also dedicate this story to my fellow
shippers.

Special Dedication: I dedicate this story to Samantha who
passed away from leukemia. I'll always miss you, Sam.